Sir Screw's Tumble

lame

Well - today was lame. Depression sank in - money causes stress.. My Dad is going through some hard times that will affect my whole family. I started thinking about my past and some of the negative parts of my life - and ran with it. I hate when that happens - or when I do that. But, now I’m meeting chicks on Craigslist. I guess my life is just in a weird transitional phase. I wasted a LOT of money recently and I realllllly regret it. I hate money when I do stuff like this - I love it when I have plenty of it. Unfortunately, I am in the hating stage now. I’m just blogging to get some of this “yucky” feeling off of me. I think it takes some of the power away. I have some cash in the bank and its gonna last me the next 10 days, until my next check comes in - but WHYYYY do I freak out and stress and beat myself up? Sometimes I feel like something is seriously wrong with me - but I guess a lot of people are hard on themselves. I am just a standard american dealing with depression caused by money. Money and the feeling of failure that media and the last generation have instilled in our minds/hearts. LAME.